i'm glad this is over

I still remember when one of my friend give me an advice : i don't know the answer you looking for, but open your eyes and ear you'll find out soon. and yes. his advice were totally right. I almost got all the answer i looking for. Universe or unconscious or sixth sense or instinct whatever you named it help me. And just like i believe is TRUST your gut because your brain can be fooled and your heart is an idiot but your GUT doesn't know how to lie. and a big achievement of this month is cutting off all toxic relationship and friendship in my life. I don't need more negativity in my life. GOODBYE for GOOD and have a nice day!

my life such a paradoks

I don't know what happen with my life recently, actually everything seems like out of control. This all mess start from this summer, I spend my summer holiday with terrible and mixed feeling and when I thought everything was gonna be okay but I was wrong, things still goes on quite bad even when summer over. Things still goes wrong without I don't know the reason why and why they did this to me. Why they betrayed me? Fall is coming and maybe one of my wish come true, the another one I was believe also betrayed me. ET TU BRUTE? maybe this last word from Julius Caesar like Shakespeare said as English quote meaning even you, brute? as unexpected betrayal from friends. But who want living a life with fake friends. I feel sad but relief at same time. Summer was end and fall is coming. Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend you have been the one, you have been the one for me. YES I PUT IT ON PAST TENSE.

superhero

 

jayus si tapi cukup bikin aku senyum senyum sendiri.

him : give me three name of your favorite superhero

me  : batman. superman. and.... sailormoon

him : no. no. no. i'm your man. 

duh kok sailormoon si jawaban km yg terakhir masa NO. NO. NO i'm your moon

me  : HUAKAKAKA. unpredictable me

you're so annoying

sometimes we laugh and had good time together. but most of these we try to kill each other. iya. hidup kadang memang selucu itu.

yes. we could't work it

one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do is stop loving someone because they've stopped loving you. he said he loose his faith on me. yes. we broke up. broken dream of us.

ketakutan itu

Tuhan. tolong jaga hatiku. aku takut hancur lagi untuk kedua kalinya. dan kali ini mungkin akan terhempas jatuh lebi mnyakitkan dari yg sebelumnya. aku takut Tuhan. aku takut sekali. 

hello month of love

ah. i miss this blog. terakhir ngepost masi oktober. hahaha. janji manis bwat rajin ngeblog hanyalah menjadi resolusi yg tertunda. let's make review of last almost four months later : 

• november : it's holiday. yeay! i really enjoyed my holiday in bangkok with my family. and a week after that we had short trip to singapore. by the way this month were his birthday. i made something for him and make him smiled last for a week. what a magic simple thing called love.

• december : i lived my last month in last year with so much happiness. we were getting closer. yes. people should fall in love with their closed eyes.

• january : yes. thanks God for the blessing. we were official now. it's one of magical gift from JC. i wish if God will we were gonna through this and take this to the next level. i told you isn't gonna be easy. but it's gonna be worth.

• february : i back blogging. yeay. but i made him mad today. i felt so bad. please have faith with me. i love you more.

let's face the truth

yaelah. yg gk dibales chat nya seharian D mulu. udah gk usah dtungguin. kaya baru pertama kali aja. uda biarin aja. ntar juga lama lama elu biasa tanpa dia. no hard feeling please. laki kaya gt mah gk guna! klo masi punya hati nurani ya palingan ntar kapan kapan dia masi nyari elu lagi. klo gak nyari ya uda. bodo amat. 

diet asal asalan

this is what i ate today. yes same menu for lunch and dinner : mixed grain toast + chicken breast strips and kimchi by bonchon. not so healthy hahaha

by the way. koko bertato naga uda pindah gym. sedih. tapi ya sudah la. termasuk spon bwat angkat beban ikutan ilang. kampret. trus aku binun campur galau sedikit. soalnya sinyo berondong ku klo bales bbm lama. huakakaka. bocan kali ya uda dua bulan nonstop bbm an terus. ato mungkin karena.. ciee.. gk asik ciee... *pengsan!

i change my mind

okay. forget it about my last post. i'm jealous-for-i-dont-know. ah sudahlah. just like i said. maybe i was such an idiot who thought and missed you lil' bit too much. 

super kind and lovely

make your avatar by MINI ME. super easy. cute and adorable 

jujur tadi pagi aku rada galau. trus mikir yg negatif gt deh. feeling insecure. and please blame my period!!! hahahaha. kangen tapi KZL. tapi di satu sisi netral-advice-anti-galau-mikir-logis ngomong gini : uda nyantai aja. mungkin dia emang lagi sibuk. mungkin dia emang kaya elo. sibuk gk mw dganggu. ntar klo ada waktu. hatinya uda adem dia pasti ngasi kabar kok. JENG JENG JENG. akhirnya jam 6pm dikabarin lagi hahahaha. gk perlu nunggu sampe jam 10.30pm hihihihi. seneeeng!!! 

btw. i hv gossip on my gym. tuh koko bertato nagaaaaa!! aaaw. hari ini rada beda penampilannya. apa ya. rambut baru?! yg pasti bajunya baru. bagus. hihihi. tapi bikin berpikir yg nggak nggak deh. hahahaha. baek banget. tadi nawarin mw jemput. trus ganti rugi member gym lama asal aku gym bareng dia sore sore di gold gym. hihihihi. GEMES! eew. maybe having an affair with berondong is fun. but. married man is another level. eits. GAK USAH ANEH ANEH. aku tetep di gym lama. hahaha

you were nice man

because love comes so slow. but gone so fast... maybe i'm such an idiot. i thought that we were going to be something. you said you've been busy all day. but either i. i don't have time. i make time. DO YOU? 

maybe i should forgive myself for falling for you. expectation hurt right. but. it's okay to say goodbye. 

one of my wish came true

you don't need me but you won't leave me. my love's too big for you my love. oh. my love's too big for you my love. and if i was stronger then i would tell you no. and if i was stronger then i would leave this show. and if i was stronger then i would up and go. but here i am and here we go again. 

-- sort of - by - ingrid michaelson 

tadi siang dia dateng. jengukin aku yg lagi sakit mungkin ya. cakep. pake polo biru. kacamata baru frame hitam armani. makin ganteng. suit for him. jalan nya rada bungkuk kaya biasa. tapi muka ku kucel. gk make up. mungkin dia langsung ilfil. ah bodo amat. lagi sakit kok. hih! tapi aku seneng si dijenguk. dia tiga jam dsini. nonton tivi. maem bareng. maen ipad. dan. untuk sesaat aku lupa klo dia bukan kepunyaan aku ;(

can't wait to see you again

kapan hari seminggu lebi gk contact km = gk kangen. eh kok pas sekarang. gk contact tiga hari aja uda kangen. 

teman. kamu dimana

jujur ada yg bikin aku sedih. pulang dari jiarah. ada temen yg bisa dibilang mayan baik. jadi menjauh. entah mengapa. sepertinya sibuk dengan teman baru. it's suck! bukannya gk seneng temen bisa punya temen baru si. tapi. eh. ya kaya gk butuh gt luoh sekarang. itu yg bikin sebel. time will heal btw. i knew.